I'm avoiding.

Which Harry Potter Character Are You?
	You are Harry. You're a loyal and courageous friend. You'd do anything to protect the people you love, especially if it'll get you a break from class for a little while.
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Which Disney Princess Are You?
	You are Jasmine. You are loyal and would visit the ends of the earth for what you believe. You would never let obstacles stand in the way of true love.
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Which Pixar Character Are You?
	You are part Woody. You've got an overall well-rounded character, but your insecurity sticks out like a sore thumb. If you ever want to recapture your past stardom, you're going to have to accept that the game has changed and you'll need some help.
	You are part Dory. You are naive and gullible. Wait, that's a good thing. Your ability to trust any stranger is a trait not many people have, but be more cautious next time a stranger offers to buy you lunch or you might find yourself in a fishy situation.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

Liz got me interested by doing a quiz on her blog.

It's been a super busy week. I have been producing a circus play with the kids and so yesterday we finally put on our play complete with booths that the kids ran, cupcakes, prizes, and more. It actually went well which I wasn't so sure it was going to. We've been working on it for over a month!
I finally found a place to live so this weekend I'll be moving. Should be a lot of work. I'm kind of worried though cause Micah was supposed to help but now he's camping this weekend so I'm not really sure how much help I'm gonna have. I think Kelly's gonna help but since my place is on the third floor and there's a lot of stuff to carry up it would be nice to have a few more people. Although three hispanic guys I made friends with at the apt complex offered to help right after they offered me a Bud Light. So maybe if I get them some beer and pizza or something they'll help.
Well I better quit avoiding packing!

I have lots of TV updates to give I suppose. My brain is probably rotting out.
First I watched Crossroads the other day. On CMT where they put two random artists together and they sing each other's songs. Anyways I watched Kelly Clarkson and Reba and it was such a weird mix. It was really interesting how they sang some of their songs together! I was wondering why I heard on the radio the other day Reba singing "Because of You" but now I get it.
I saw a preview for this TV show called "Kid Nation." They put like 40 kids up to age 14 I think in this old Wild West town by themselves for a few weeks and have them set up their own town. They elect their own leaders, do their own chores, open their own stores etc. Even a root beer bar. The point it supposed to be to see if they can run a town better than adults can. It seems interesting and in a lot of ways wrong and unethical yet I know that I will want to watch it. No one gets voted out, but if anyone wants to leave all they have to do is say so and they go home.
I am really pumped for all the upcoming Harry Potter stuff. The movie. The book. Que emocionante.
Work is crazy. Yet I'm actually pretty happy there right now so I can't really complain too much. I was in tears today cause it was Melissa's last day. Tuesday is Whitey's. So talk to me in a week when I have a brand new team and I may feel differently. I love the kids though. And while on a general basis I feel like a lot of people who know me do not so much like me, I know that the kids love me. So if I can go to one place and feel loved by 12 people then how could I be sad there? I have to be honest that it's the one place I do feel comfortable and loved and so it makes me want to go in each day. Perhaps I should just start popping out kids.
I started playing soccer. The team is good though and I have to actually play hard to keep up. Plus there were no subs so that was a lot of work. I have seriously been slacking in working out. I've been working like 10 or 11 hour days every day and then babysitting a couple times a week and it just wipes me out!
Ok well I guess that's it. I hope everyone is doing well. Happy early 4th if I don't update again before then!

Quote of the entry:
"I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing "
- "Because of You" - Kelly Clarkson (and sometimes Reba)

I think I'm potentially stressed to my max. I hope that things lighten up soon.
Whenever I'm not working recently I've been babysitting. Peyton and Ethan are adorable and I love them both. They have their moments when I want to kill them but . . . that always happens sometimes. I feel really bad for them right now. Their mom moved out a week or two ago and it's definitely throwing them off. They are sad and it's making me sad. For some reason it's been really triggering (I like how I use my namaqua terminology outside of work as well) to me. I think it's just the similarity with the mom moving and the dad being real sad and wanting her to come back. I can't handle talking with him. He always makes me want to cry. I hope whether they divorce or stay together that things get better for them.
I'm currently trying not to care about work. Whitey put in her two week notice on Tuesday. Melissa put in her two week notice on Friday. Koki will be putting his in probably in the next week or two. He's waiting to hear about his internship. You know who that leaves for summer? Me. And only me. Well I guess and Tad but he only does 9-2:30 and we'd fire him if we didn't need the employees because he's the biggest slacker ever and doesn't do shit for us. So I will be breaking in a whole new team. Which is bad in itself but wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to do the teaching too. So people like Paula and Kelly keep thinking that I'm gonna be really upset about people putting their two weeks in, but I'm turning sadness into anger and going with the I don't care attitude. Namaqua's different like that. In most places you are sad if people quit but it doesn't really matter. At Namaqua though you spend your 40 hours with the same 3 people and you rely on them to keep you safe when kids are being violent and you're protecting them so you have a weird closeness.
Our 5 year old is moving on Monday and I'm sad. He's adorable and I am going to miss him in my class. He's really gotten screwed over a lot in life so I hope this new placement works out.
I was spending a lot of time talking to Lauren. Her grandpa died which was really sad. The lawnmower flipped over on him. Of course her parents were on their way to an Alaskan cruise and they had to call them to come back home. I sent a card but I wish I could have done more for their family. I'm sure it was really rough on her dad.
I'm currently looking for a place in Loveland to rent and worrying about everything that goes along with that. Finding a place. Packing everything. Borrowing or renting a truck to move stuff. Stopping all our services here and getting everything hooked up there. Seems like a pain. I hope I love the place.
Bill, Micah and I went to a Rockies game on Friday. It was just what I needed. Getting drunk, two laid back boys, and the Rockies killing Tampa Bay.
On a bright note, Dan is supposed to get the info and get us signed up for soccer tonight. So soon I should be playing every Thursday night which I am PUMPED about.
Tonight is more babysitting and tomorrow starts another long work week (I'm actually approved for like 7 hours of OT a week now because they're making me do all kinds of extra crap) so I better actually get some stuff at the house done and stop playing on the computer.
Less than two months till I see you all but it still seems like forever. I miss you guys.

Quote of the Entry:
"I'm not right
And I'm not fine
I wanna be rain that tastes like wine
I wanna be good
I wanna be great
I wanna be everything except for your mistake"
-"Your Mistake" - Sister Hazel

I had a fantastic day

Here's the recap.
12-3 Taste of Fort Collins with Bill. Had some excellent barbecue. Listened to some live music (the Fort Collins Symphony, which was fine, and then a Denver band called The Trampolines. They were awesome I thought. I even bought their CD)
3-5 Barbecue at Dave and Heather's (Bill's friends) for their birthday.
5-8:30 Back to Taste of Fort Collins. A delicious Frozen lemonade/Bacardi Limon drink, a bag of kettle corn, and SISTER HAZEL in concert. They were awesome. They definitely rank as one of my top bands so I was pumped to hear that they were coming to Fort Collins. They put on a great show. I knew about 3/4 of their songs. They played a lot of songs from their new CD that was just released 4 days ago so I didn't know those ones unfortunately.
8:30-9:30 Back to the BBQ to see if more people we knew had showed up.
This is when things got interesting. Emily called wanting Bill and I to go to Denver to watch some band play. We kind of felt bad when she showed up at the BBQ begging us so we said yes. They were going to run to Bill's to let Angel out and then come pick me up. However on the way home I completely forgot about telling Tyler and Dan that I would stop by Relay for Life and visit them. So I backed out on the Denver trip.
10:30-1:30 Trip to Relay for Life in Loveland. Walked for about 2 hours with Dan and Tyler.
Finally back home after a long day and decided to update for all of you since I was in a good mood.
It was a pretty good week overall. Work has been a little iffy with all the new people. All the older people have really had to pick up a lot of slack.
Wednesday I went and watched Bill and Micah play softball and then went out to get drinks with their team. It was quite the good time especially since the bar was having karaoke and there are some funny people on their team.
Last night Bill and I BBQ'd. It's nice to have dinner with someone else cause then you don't feel like you're making way too much for one person.
Dan has a friend who needs some more players for summer soccer I guess on Thursday nights so it's looking good that I might be able to join that which I would be super pumped about. That's a really long run on sentence that I just wrote by the way.
Well that's about it I guess. The house is pretty empty now that I have a 3 bedroom house with one person's stuff. I hate looking for someplace to move to.
I'm already really excited for the float trip and alumni. 2 good reasons to come home. And I will more than likely be home for Christmas this year which hasn't happened in a while. Yay for seeing old friends! Now all I have to do is get swimsuit ready. Bring on the running.
I hope that everyone is enjoying that it's summer.

Quote of the Entry:

"Hey hey-
Have you ever danced in the rain
Or thanked the sun
Just for shining- just for shining
Or the sea?
Oh no- take it all in
The world's a show
And yeah, you look much better,
Look much better when you glow

If you've had enough
Of all your tryin'
Just give up
The state of mind you're in…

If you want to be somebody else,
If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself
If you want to be somebody else
Change your mind..."
- "Change Your Mind" - Sister Hazel

"If you want to test your memory, try to recall what you were worrying about one year ago today." - Rotarian

So I'm ALMOST positive that I'm gonna move back to St. Louis this summer. Or at least somewhere in Missouri. Probably not until July or August but that's seeming like my most likely plan. I think had I not already signed a lease for another year of rent I would have already done so last fall or winter. I'm not sure how it'll all work out or anything but I'm just kind of hoping that will be the best thing for me. I hate feeling like I'm missing out on things or wanting to buy a million plane tickets for all the stuff I want to come home for. Colorado is a cool place and I like hiking and what not. But what fun is a place with things to do if you have no one to do them with. I'd rather be in St. Louis with possibly less things to do but knowing people. I also do love work but that's fading recently mainly cause I don't like the way the place is run and everyone I like is quitting anyways. And I'm sure there are lot of other low paying jobs that involve children that need help.
I'm pretty nervous about work on Monday. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this but I'm teaching the last month of school. We fired one teacher in like December and then another last month and then our newest lasted 2 weeks before putting in her two weeks notice. So now it's me. Which is fine cause when things are a disaster I'd at least like to feel like I have some control so now I'll have lots of control. My only concern is that the kids usually all end up hating the teachers. I feel like I'm pretty close to a lot of the kids right now and have good relationships with them and I don't want this to ruin that. I would be really sad if I lost a lot of their love and respect. They are what keep me going sometimes.
I'm really happy that I was able to go home for Sarah's wedding. It was a lot of fun and I loved dancing! I wish there were things like that every weekend. Why don't more of you just get married already? I also was really excited to see Lauren. We've been talking a lot recently. We never went completely out of contact with each other or anything like that but I like that we're much closer now than we have been for a while. We've seen each other through a lot. I've also talked to Patrick a lot more recntly. I feel like I'm going back to High School. Especially since 3 of my closer high school friends are getting married this year. On the down side of that I feel like while my highschool contact is going up, I do feel like my college contact is going down. That's partially my fault, but I just feel like everyone is too busy. I was kind of expecting it to be the other way around honestly. But either way . . . Hopefully we will all never fall completely out of contact. I guess I could always be 70 and still write you notes on your Facebook wall.
It's beautiful outside. It's like mid 70's and sunshiney. Well I'm thinking about reading a book on the patio or taking a nap. I hope everyone is doing well with finals and studying hard. And those not in school are enjoying work and happy to not be taking finals.

Quote of the entry:
Me: "If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?" (implying a place obviously)
Boy: "With you. Where would you live?"
Me: "Uhhh. . ."
From a conversation with a little boy that breaks my heart everyday.

Thriller was indeed thrilling

So only at Coldstone will a group of about 10 (I'm guessing sophomores in college) students do the thriller dance all in synch (along with a few random singers) in order to get their ice cream buy one get one free. That place sure does pack a lot of character. I had the Cheesecake Fantasy with chocolate chips added. It was delicious.
Today has been FANTASTIC because I got my license!! YAY! I was super super pumped. That's why I was at Coldstone with Micah. I wanted to celebrate but it seemed inappropriate to do so with alcohol. So I will get to drive to work tomorrow during the snow storm. Woo Hoo!
I got the new cinnamon sweet potato pringles. Very odd I know. Yet still tasty. Well now that I've focused this entry on food . . . I'm becoming a fatty . . . I need to work out more. Perhaps I'll start putting my running amounts on my journal so I can feel super guilty about not working out. I've been not wanting to do anything but I think that's all gonna change soon. It needs to anyways!

Quote of the Entry:

"Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand

Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place"
- "Stand" Rascal Flatts

Everyone get out your number 2 pencils

Sometimes I get really caught up in taking these quizzes. Mainly becauseI think they're interesting.

Your Brain is Blue

Of all the brain types, yours is the most mellow.You tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. You don't try to think away your troubles.Your thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. You truly see things as how they are. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about your friends, your surroundings, and your life.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourbrainquiz/">What Color Is Your Brain?

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.People crave your praise and complements.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

Your Personality is Somewhat Common (ESFJ)

Your personality type is generous, accepting, humble, and considerate. About 11% of all people have your personality, including 15% of all women and 7% of all menYou are Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Judging.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howrareisyourpersonalityquiz/">How Rare Is Your Personality?

You Should Try Sandboarding

As extreme as snowboarding...Except you won't get cold!

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatextremesportshouldyoutryquiz/">What Extreme Sport Should You Try?

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howdoyoucommunicatequiz/">How Do You Communicate?

You Are Running on 75% Adrenaline

Your Adrenaline Level: Borderline Dangerous You're running around so fast, you don't realize how quickly life is passing you by.While you may be getting a lot done, you're on the go lifestyle is probably wearing you out.

Are'>http://www.blogthings.com/areyourunningonadrenalinequiz/">Are You Running on Adrenaline?

Well now that I have wasted a ton of time and don't necessarily agree or disagree with these quizzes I think it's time to hit the sack!

Hit me with your best shot

Hmm So I'll give this shot #2 since the first time I tried this my computer messed up and the whole thing vanished.
Work has been pretty much insane this week. State Investigations. People on administrative leave. One person getting fired. It sucked a lot. It was our team that was under investigation so that was the worst part. Super Super Stressful. At least I was in the clear. I was not responsible and I didn't even have to get interviewed by the county or anything. Other people were not so lucky. That's kind of the scary thing about my job. Our kids are so freaking hard. But if something goes wrong with them we can get charged with neglect. And that's insane. It would ruin people's lives. You could never get a job with kids after that. Luckily Melissa is finally in the clear now and can come back to work on Monday. I love her and I was sad for her. Poor girl was having a breakdown.
I talked to work people like 30 times the past few days. I did have a really good conversation with Kelly last night about work, friends, families, etc. It's just weird. It's like she knows everything I'm thinking and has been through a lot of stuff in her life so has a lot of good comparisons. She's gonna make a kick-ass therapist someday I think.
Namaqua is working on joining up with Larimer Center for Mental Health. It wouldn't change my job really at all but it would mean a pay increase, better benefits, raises, and all kinds of pleasant things like that that we don't normally get. So maybe I'll end up staying at Namaqua longer? Plus most of the time I really do love my job there.
I'm gonna go see the team tomorrow play rugby. Yay. And probably hang out with Whitey for a while. I've been meaning to run to the store to take some fruit and whatnot to the team.
My dad is so cute. It's weird how much he's changed over the course of my life. I used to be really scared of him. But now he is such a big softy. He sent me an Easter card and was so proud of it.
Hmm well that's really all that's exciting that's going on in my life. Things are really stressful right now, but hopefully things'll get better. Hopefully work'll get better and some current problems with my mom will clear up. Being an adult is hard sometimes. Sometimes I think I'm a lot older than I really am. Maybe it's all the 10 year olds wanting me to be their mom. Dang adorable fucked up kids.

Good Song with a Good Lesson

Quote of the Entry:
Run your car off the side of the road
Get stuck in a ditch way out in the middle of nowhere
Or get yourself in a bind,
Lose the shirt off your back,
Need a floor, need a couch, need a bus fare…

This is where the rubber meets the road
This is where the cream is gonna rise
This is what you really didn't know
This is where the truth don’t lie

Find out who your friends are
Somebody’s gonna drop everything
Run out and crank up their car
Hit the gas, get there fast
Never stop to think “what’s in it for me?”
Or “it’s way too far”
They just show on up
With their big ol’ heart
Yeah find out who your friends are.

- Find Out Who Your Friends Are - Tracy Lawrence