"If you want to test your memory, try to recall what you were worrying about one year ago today." - Rotarian

So I'm ALMOST positive that I'm gonna move back to St. Louis this summer. Or at least somewhere in Missouri. Probably not until July or August but that's seeming like my most likely plan. I think had I not already signed a lease for another year of rent I would have already done so last fall or winter. I'm not sure how it'll all work out or anything but I'm just kind of hoping that will be the best thing for me. I hate feeling like I'm missing out on things or wanting to buy a million plane tickets for all the stuff I want to come home for. Colorado is a cool place and I like hiking and what not. But what fun is a place with things to do if you have no one to do them with. I'd rather be in St. Louis with possibly less things to do but knowing people. I also do love work but that's fading recently mainly cause I don't like the way the place is run and everyone I like is quitting anyways. And I'm sure there are lot of other low paying jobs that involve children that need help.
I'm pretty nervous about work on Monday. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this but I'm teaching the last month of school. We fired one teacher in like December and then another last month and then our newest lasted 2 weeks before putting in her two weeks notice. So now it's me. Which is fine cause when things are a disaster I'd at least like to feel like I have some control so now I'll have lots of control. My only concern is that the kids usually all end up hating the teachers. I feel like I'm pretty close to a lot of the kids right now and have good relationships with them and I don't want this to ruin that. I would be really sad if I lost a lot of their love and respect. They are what keep me going sometimes.
I'm really happy that I was able to go home for Sarah's wedding. It was a lot of fun and I loved dancing! I wish there were things like that every weekend. Why don't more of you just get married already? I also was really excited to see Lauren. We've been talking a lot recently. We never went completely out of contact with each other or anything like that but I like that we're much closer now than we have been for a while. We've seen each other through a lot. I've also talked to Patrick a lot more recntly. I feel like I'm going back to High School. Especially since 3 of my closer high school friends are getting married this year. On the down side of that I feel like while my highschool contact is going up, I do feel like my college contact is going down. That's partially my fault, but I just feel like everyone is too busy. I was kind of expecting it to be the other way around honestly. But either way . . . Hopefully we will all never fall completely out of contact. I guess I could always be 70 and still write you notes on your Facebook wall.
It's beautiful outside. It's like mid 70's and sunshiney. Well I'm thinking about reading a book on the patio or taking a nap. I hope everyone is doing well with finals and studying hard. And those not in school are enjoying work and happy to not be taking finals.

Quote of the entry:
Me: "If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?" (implying a place obviously)
Boy: "With you. Where would you live?"
Me: "Uhhh. . ."
From a conversation with a little boy that breaks my heart everyday.

Thriller was indeed thrilling

So only at Coldstone will a group of about 10 (I'm guessing sophomores in college) students do the thriller dance all in synch (along with a few random singers) in order to get their ice cream buy one get one free. That place sure does pack a lot of character. I had the Cheesecake Fantasy with chocolate chips added. It was delicious.
Today has been FANTASTIC because I got my license!! YAY! I was super super pumped. That's why I was at Coldstone with Micah. I wanted to celebrate but it seemed inappropriate to do so with alcohol. So I will get to drive to work tomorrow during the snow storm. Woo Hoo!
I got the new cinnamon sweet potato pringles. Very odd I know. Yet still tasty. Well now that I've focused this entry on food . . . I'm becoming a fatty . . . I need to work out more. Perhaps I'll start putting my running amounts on my journal so I can feel super guilty about not working out. I've been not wanting to do anything but I think that's all gonna change soon. It needs to anyways!

Quote of the Entry:

"Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand

Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place"
- "Stand" Rascal Flatts

Everyone get out your number 2 pencils

Sometimes I get really caught up in taking these quizzes. Mainly becauseI think they're interesting.

Your Brain is Blue

Of all the brain types, yours is the most mellow.You tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. You don't try to think away your troubles.Your thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. You truly see things as how they are. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about your friends, your surroundings, and your life.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourbrainquiz/">What Color Is Your Brain?

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.People crave your praise and complements.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

Your Personality is Somewhat Common (ESFJ)

Your personality type is generous, accepting, humble, and considerate. About 11% of all people have your personality, including 15% of all women and 7% of all menYou are Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Judging.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howrareisyourpersonalityquiz/">How Rare Is Your Personality?

You Should Try Sandboarding

As extreme as snowboarding...Except you won't get cold!

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatextremesportshouldyoutryquiz/">What Extreme Sport Should You Try?

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howdoyoucommunicatequiz/">How Do You Communicate?

You Are Running on 75% Adrenaline

Your Adrenaline Level: Borderline Dangerous You're running around so fast, you don't realize how quickly life is passing you by.While you may be getting a lot done, you're on the go lifestyle is probably wearing you out.

Are'>http://www.blogthings.com/areyourunningonadrenalinequiz/">Are You Running on Adrenaline?

Well now that I have wasted a ton of time and don't necessarily agree or disagree with these quizzes I think it's time to hit the sack!

Hit me with your best shot

Hmm So I'll give this shot #2 since the first time I tried this my computer messed up and the whole thing vanished.
Work has been pretty much insane this week. State Investigations. People on administrative leave. One person getting fired. It sucked a lot. It was our team that was under investigation so that was the worst part. Super Super Stressful. At least I was in the clear. I was not responsible and I didn't even have to get interviewed by the county or anything. Other people were not so lucky. That's kind of the scary thing about my job. Our kids are so freaking hard. But if something goes wrong with them we can get charged with neglect. And that's insane. It would ruin people's lives. You could never get a job with kids after that. Luckily Melissa is finally in the clear now and can come back to work on Monday. I love her and I was sad for her. Poor girl was having a breakdown.
I talked to work people like 30 times the past few days. I did have a really good conversation with Kelly last night about work, friends, families, etc. It's just weird. It's like she knows everything I'm thinking and has been through a lot of stuff in her life so has a lot of good comparisons. She's gonna make a kick-ass therapist someday I think.
Namaqua is working on joining up with Larimer Center for Mental Health. It wouldn't change my job really at all but it would mean a pay increase, better benefits, raises, and all kinds of pleasant things like that that we don't normally get. So maybe I'll end up staying at Namaqua longer? Plus most of the time I really do love my job there.
I'm gonna go see the team tomorrow play rugby. Yay. And probably hang out with Whitey for a while. I've been meaning to run to the store to take some fruit and whatnot to the team.
My dad is so cute. It's weird how much he's changed over the course of my life. I used to be really scared of him. But now he is such a big softy. He sent me an Easter card and was so proud of it.
Hmm well that's really all that's exciting that's going on in my life. Things are really stressful right now, but hopefully things'll get better. Hopefully work'll get better and some current problems with my mom will clear up. Being an adult is hard sometimes. Sometimes I think I'm a lot older than I really am. Maybe it's all the 10 year olds wanting me to be their mom. Dang adorable fucked up kids.

Good Song with a Good Lesson

Quote of the Entry:
Run your car off the side of the road
Get stuck in a ditch way out in the middle of nowhere
Or get yourself in a bind,
Lose the shirt off your back,
Need a floor, need a couch, need a bus fare…

This is where the rubber meets the road
This is where the cream is gonna rise
This is what you really didn't know
This is where the truth don’t lie

Find out who your friends are
Somebody’s gonna drop everything
Run out and crank up their car
Hit the gas, get there fast
Never stop to think “what’s in it for me?”
Or “it’s way too far”
They just show on up
With their big ol’ heart
Yeah find out who your friends are.

- Find Out Who Your Friends Are - Tracy Lawrence

"I love how we can joke about our pathetic-ness and both think it's really funny."

"That's why I love you."
"Cause I would fly 800 miles and kick his ass if he put his hands on you?"
"Yes. Cause you got my back."

That's why I love Lauren. That girl cracks me up. I just had like the best phone conversation ever with her. We are just really like. We've gone to gradeschool, high school, and college together and she knows me so well. We've known each other for 15 years and been through a ton of growing up together. I know you all have friends like that. We have stupid fights over stupid stuff but we always go right back to where we left off. I know we struggled some of college, but that seems to be long behind us. Things just always go back to being comfortable. Her boyfriend isn't really putting his hands on her or anything. Just what she says makes me a little nervous and I want her to be careful.
She gave me two compliments on the phone today and I started crying. It was super nice of her. I made her cry too though I think.
I love The Hills. I know that it totally doesn't seem like one of my TV shows, but it is. I love Lauren Conrad. I think she's adorable and mature about things. She just seems like a genuinely nice, down-to-earth, and fun person. Heidi drives me insane and Spencer is such an ass. I want to kill them. I wish they would break up. It's sad how quickly Lauren and Heidi's friendship walked right out the door. I'm guessing that none of you watch The Hills, but if you do, let me know and I'll go much more indepth on my feelings about it. Because I am nice and opinionated about it. It's the only show that I actually cared about watching each week.
I love the Akon song "Don't Matter." I just want to belt it out when it comes on. Do some dancing while I'm sitting on the couch listening to it on my computer. "Glamorous" is really growing on me too. I did not care for it at first but now that I belt it out with Melissa I like it a lot more. I like that it mentions Taco Bell. I do equate Taco Bell with glamour. I was giving Lindsay a hard time cause she thought "Cupid's Chokehold" was Justin. I made her listen past the first 10 seconds and then she realized it sounds nothing like Justin.
I always forget before I get to it how long Palm Sunday mass is. It was just short of 2 hours. At least there were some really interesting parts that made it better.
I was sad about the Cardinals loss. Taguchi was kinda sucking it up. He was really struggling. And I have no idea why they sent Eckstein with one out. That was just stupid coaching. I thought for sure we would get more than one run out of that inning. Good thing there are a gazillion more games. I did quite enjoy watching the Royals pummel the Red Sox. That brightened my mood today.
Well I better get heading to bed! I won't really go to bed but I will wander around and pretend like I am for a few hours.

"You said you didn't need me in your life
I guess you were right
Well I never meant to cause you no pain
But it looks like I did it again
Now I, I wish it would rain down, down on me
Yes I wish it would rain, rain down on me now"
- Phil Collins "I Wish it Would Rain Down"