I'm in a weird mood

So for like the 15th time today I'm doing this weird up and down mood thing. I don't know what it is but I keep switching between happy, crabby, really silly and giggly, and really sad. I don't know what it is or why but I feel like I'm riding a rollercoaster round and round.
Liz worked today as a fill in. It was rather exciting. Too bad the kids were crazy and I didn't get to actually really talk to her. However she's back again tomorrow and maybe there'll be more time.
We had a TCI refresher after work today. It was one of the ones where we actually practice holds and whatnot. It never fails to crack me up. It's always funny to have all your coworkers there and to be restraining each other. We have to pretend to fight another staff member and then have people break it up. Whitey and I were partners to pretend pull each other's hair, punch each other, choke each other, etc. . . It's hard not to get real silly.
Big Weekend Plans: Going out with Braden friday, hopefully hanging out with Liz on Saturday, going to Linds's church and then some sort of churh meal and then a soccer game on Sunday.

Quote of the entry:
"You see yourself in the mirror
And you feel safe coz it looks familiar
But you afraid to open up your soul
Coz you don't really know, don't really know
Who is, the person that's deep within"
- "Gone" Black Eyed Peas and Jack Johnson

I forgot to mention . . .

I know that most of you aren't Catholic but there's this show on A&E that's really interesting. It's called "God or the girl." It's about these 5 like 20 something year old guys that are trying to decide if they're being called to be priests or the married life. I've only seen the first episode but it's really interesting. It's getting rave reviews about how tastefully it's done - not like a reality show or anything. These guys are serious and it deals with them trying to decide if they should break up with girlfriends, telling their frat brothers, and lots of other things. A lot of papers and critics were saying that it's great to watch whether you're Catholic or you're someone who is a critic of the Catholic faith. So anyways if you have some free time you should try to watch it cause it's really interesting and really makes you think.

I hope you all aren't getting bored yet

So the cat is gone . . . the eye problems not so much.
So in case you were all wondering here's the updated thoughts on my move to the grand old state of Colorado. While there are a lot of things that I miss and that I wish were different, there's also a lot more things and people that I wouldn't know had I never decided to at least give this a try. I would have never met Liz, Tyler, Whitey, Braden, Bill, Audra, etc . . . I never would have tried snowboarding. I wouldn't know all the kids that I currently do. I wouldn't have seen the mountains. I wouldn't have space away from my family to try to find my identity, to try to heal old wounds, and to try to refind my confidence in myself. I wouldn't get to hang out with my best friend nearly as much as I do now. I wouldn't be in love with a bad behaving little schnoodle. Yes there would have been a lot of pluses to staying in the STL (such as my dad and brother, some of my good friends, St Louis sports, etc. . .), but you only live once and I think in the long run if nothing else I tried something fun. I feel quite certain that this summer will only hold more mountain adventures, hanging out with friends, fun field trips and games with the kids, visits from some of the most important people to me, time at the drive in, hiking, and much more. So in case you were wondering, there you go.
I am so HAPPY that the weather is getting so much better now. It literally changes my whole mind set and everything. I seriously think I really have seasonal affect disorder because winter is so much harder for me than the spring and summer.
I talked to Patrick (my old high school friend) yesterday. It put me in the best mood ever. I ran into him on-line and we were chatting for a minute. He was telling me how he's soon to be single cause he's gonna break up with his girlfriend. And I was like "oh becky?" And his response was "Give me a number I can reach you at right now." So he called me and made fun of me and how far behind we are because apparently he broke up with Becky like a year ago and she already slept with one of his frat brothers and had a kid. I was giving him a hard time about how close he was to being a dad. So we had a nice chat. He never fails to make me smile. (and no comments from the peanut gallery, thank you) So I can't wait till I go home sometime this summer because he still works for the Cardinals so he told me he could hook me up. Which means he'll probably be able to get me in and give me a tour and everything. I'm pumped!

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

How Do You Live Your Life?

I don't know about all of this. I don't really like to switch friends quickly. Normally I can't let go!
Anyways I should really focus on a snack so that I can watch the Cards game and get ready for soccer!
I hope that everyone has a great Sunday and enjoys what's left of their weekend.

Quote of the Entry:
"Two bare feet on the dashboard
Young love in an old Ford
Cheap shades and a tattoo and a Yoohoo bottle rollin' on the floorboard
Perfect song on the radio, sing along cause it's one we know
It's a smile, it's a kiss, it's a sip of wine
It's summertime, sweet summertime"

~ Kenny Chesney - "Summertime"

MY STUPID EYES

My eyes will not stop hurting. They are stinging and watering and itching and really really hurt. Thus I keep rubbing them, which in turn makes them hurt worse, which in turn makes me want to rub them even more and so forth and so forth. I think you get the idea. Braden keeps making fun of me and saying that it's allergies but I don't know. (I of course made fun of him for having asthma to get back at him) I thought maybe it was just my contacts cause they do that sometimes when they need to be changed and whatnot. However now I've put my glasses on instead and I feel the same way. And it's making my nose all runny and blah. So that's the story on that.
We apparently have a cat. Braden and I were watching X-Men 2 and we heard this noise so we opened the front door and there was a cat sitting there on the door mat. So of course Braden starts to play with it and keeps threatening to let it come in and I'm of course threatening to beat him up if he does any such thing. So he walked downstairs and it followed him down but unfortunately it foun it's way back up. It was still sitting there when Braden left. And I can still hear it purring now. I wonder if Lucy would like a friend. It looks really well groomed and has a collar with a bell on it so I think someone may be very sad without it.
Tomorrow I have a double header in soccer. It sounds very tiring. At least it's against the same team so we'll be equally tired I suppose. We actually play 80 minute games. I almost set like 5 kids off at the park yesterday playing soccer. I had them play all 5 against me and I scored twice on them and they all quit and were really angry. Silly kids that are sore losers. I didn't even mean to score the 2nd time. I was just trying to kick it down the field and I was a far way away from the goal and it just happened to go right in. What can you do?
Braden saw Liz's newsletter sitting on my computer and was asking all about it. He laughed at us but admitted that it was in fact a good idea.
Hmm so now Audra just let the cat in the house. I don't know how I feel about that at all. Personally I think we should get it out ASAP but apparently my roommate does not feel the same. OK phwew. She just took it over to the door so that's at least a start.
Well since I really need another Kleenex and I can't see at all I think it's time to end this entry.

Quote of the Entry:
"When you look down on me,
Can you see the good through all the bad?
These are just a few questions I have.

But I wasn't there the day you filled up the oceans.
I didn't get to see you hang the stars in the sky.
So I don't mean to second guess you,
Or criticise what I don't understand.
These are just a few questions I have."

- Clay Walker "A Few Questions"

Title Schmitle

I would like to begin this post giving props to Tim McGraw. His Live like you were Dying CD has kept me entertained in the car for the last 2 weeks. You all know how incredibly picky and impatient I am about music. Usually I can't even listen to a full mixed CD so the fact that I can listen to 2/3 of a CD that is just one person. My favorite is We Carry On, but I also love: Can't Tell Me Nothin', My Old Friend, Drugs or Jesus, Kill Myself, etc . . So anyways way to be Tim McGraw. You are one impressive guy.
I realized a week or so ago that my little brother turns 21 this year. That makes me feel ancient. Which is funny since I'm 22. But still.
I'm feeling very off these days. I wish I could explain it, but unfortunately I can't.
Alright I think I really need to get my motivation to go running. So I'm off to get my MP3 player ready for a little jog. Then back home to watch the Cards/Cubs game cause it's actually on TV. Linds is gone for the weekend in Nebraska so it's just me and Audra. Bill is taking Lucy for the weekend so it should be really quiet here. That's good or bad depending I suppose.


Quote of the Entry:
"Beyond the picket fences and the oil wells
The happy endings and the fairy tales
Is the reality of shattered lives and broken dreams
We carry on

And we carry on
When our lives come undone
We carry on
Cause there's promise in the morning sun
We carry on
As the dark surrenders to the dawn
We were born to overcome
We carry on"
- Tim McGraw

It's your lucky day . . . I POSTED

You Are a Margarita

You aren't just the life of the party, you are the party!You mix a good drink, bust out some great music, and know how to get down.

What Mixed Drink Are You?

I love taking Quizzes. Yeah not so much the life of the party (even though Elizabeth thinks I'm the Crazy Fun Friend). But bring on the music and dancing.

I have a lot of stuff I wanted to write about. I did finish my newsletters and they're sitting next to me in some packages to be e-mailed out so hopefully tomorrow . . .

I went snowboarding with Linds for the first time Saturday. IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN! I had a great time. We were a lot better than we though we would be. We even went down a green and a blue hill after taking a class. We had totally different approaches which cracked me up. Linds pretty much just turned her board parallel so that she never went speedy at all but had a lot more control and didn't fall as often as I did I don't think. My strategy on the other hand was to go as fast as possible (although I was doing the falling leaf with Kaci and Steph who were teaching me) and then just fall when I got way too much speed or too close to people and was nervous that I'd run into them. Kaci and Steph were so cute because they stayed with me the whole way down to try to teach me to do it better. I tried really hard to do the side to side thing (the falling leaf - you ride across kind of side to side while going down) and I could kind of do it, especially on heel side. They tried to teach me toe side but you have to look up the mountain the whole time and it's really hard. Kaci even held my hands and did heel side while I tried to do toe side but it was just way too hard. Kaci and Steph couldn't keep up with me and everyone said that I was flying down super fast with no fear but really I just didn't know how to go any slower. Luckily it doesn't really hurt ever if you fall because it's snow. It wasn't nearly as scary as I thought it'd be. I really didn't have any fear - it was just a lot of fun. Of course Bill stayed with Linds and tried to help her down the mountain. My arms are super sore from trying to get back up so many times. They told us we did awesome though and that they never got off the beginner slope their first times. So we felt pretty good about it.
Bill and Kaci work for Vail so we got to do everything for free. All we had to do was pay to rent our snowboards.
Linds and Bill were cute. Now granted sometimes I was feeling a bit nauseous cause they were sickingly sweet, but what can you do? She sits on his lap a lot and holds his hand while he drives and leans on him, etc . . . He's a good guy. I see him like every day so it's a good thing that I like him. Of course there's always that bit of jealousy that someone else is becoming really important to your good friend and you have to share your friend more, but of course I'm really happy for her and love to see her face light up and her be happy.
The other day I feel like I dated Bill. He went to Trailhead with me to watch the Cards season opener at the new stadium. Then we came back and got Luce and took her to the park with us and shot the soccer ball around. It was kinda funny.
We went to Bill's for Easter and it was a grand old time as well. Lots of good food, hanging out, hiding eggs, playing with all the dogs, etc . . .
Bill and I had to schedule plans for Linds's birthday so that we could share her. It's Wednesday - the big 23. She's practically ancient! He has the beginning part of the evening like 3-7:15 and then I have everything after that. YAY!!!!
Work today was pretty crazy. We put 6 kids on 3-shift plans for running. (which means they can't go outside at all for three shifts because they aren't safe) Which means I spent a lot of time running around after kids. Both of my hands are covered with scratches and I wore myself out literally guarding a doorway to stop a 130 something pound 10 year old from getting out for like 20 minutes. It was completely exhausting.

You Are Austin

A little bit country, a little bit rock and roll.You're totally weird and very proud of it.Artistic and freaky, you still seem to fit in... in your own strange way. Famous Austin residents: Lance Armstrong, Sandra Bullock, Andy Roddick

What American City Are You?

People Envy Your Generosity

You're a giving soul, and you'd do almost anything for those you love. And they'd do anything for you!People may envy how giving you are, but more than anything, they envy those you open your heart to.

What Do People Envy About You?

I could do these all day long. The answers never cease to crack me up.

You Are Bud Light

You're not fussy when it comes to beer. If someone hands it to you, you'll drink it. In fact, you don't understand beer snobbery at all. It all tastes the same once you're drunk! You're an enthusiastic drinker, and you can often be found at your neighborhood bar. You're pretty good at holding your liquor too - you've had lots of experience.

What's" Your Beer Personality?

I love Bud Light, but I am super picky about my beer type. If it's not Bud Light it's a struggle!! None of those crappy microbrewery things!

You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Ok for real that's enough - I'll save more for a another day. I don't know that I believe any of these answers that I just got but . . . they were still enjoyable to take.

Well I guess that's all for now. I love you girls and miss you. You should all come to Colorado this summer and we can climb a big mountain or something. If you all drive together it wouldn't be that expensive!