I have lots of TV updates to give I suppose. My brain is probably rotting out.
First I watched Crossroads the other day. On CMT where they put two random artists together and they sing each other's songs. Anyways I watched Kelly Clarkson and Reba and it was such a weird mix. It was really interesting how they sang some of their songs together! I was wondering why I heard on the radio the other day Reba singing "Because of You" but now I get it.
I saw a preview for this TV show called "Kid Nation." They put like 40 kids up to age 14 I think in this old Wild West town by themselves for a few weeks and have them set up their own town. They elect their own leaders, do their own chores, open their own stores etc. Even a root beer bar. The point it supposed to be to see if they can run a town better than adults can. It seems interesting and in a lot of ways wrong and unethical yet I know that I will want to watch it. No one gets voted out, but if anyone wants to leave all they have to do is say so and they go home.
I am really pumped for all the upcoming Harry Potter stuff. The movie. The book. Que emocionante.
Work is crazy. Yet I'm actually pretty happy there right now so I can't really complain too much. I was in tears today cause it was Melissa's last day. Tuesday is Whitey's. So talk to me in a week when I have a brand new team and I may feel differently. I love the kids though. And while on a general basis I feel like a lot of people who know me do not so much like me, I know that the kids love me. So if I can go to one place and feel loved by 12 people then how could I be sad there? I have to be honest that it's the one place I do feel comfortable and loved and so it makes me want to go in each day. Perhaps I should just start popping out kids.
I started playing soccer. The team is good though and I have to actually play hard to keep up. Plus there were no subs so that was a lot of work. I have seriously been slacking in working out. I've been working like 10 or 11 hour days every day and then babysitting a couple times a week and it just wipes me out!
Ok well I guess that's it. I hope everyone is doing well. Happy early 4th if I don't update again before then!

Quote of the entry:
"I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing "
- "Because of You" - Kelly Clarkson (and sometimes Reba)

I think I'm potentially stressed to my max. I hope that things lighten up soon.
Whenever I'm not working recently I've been babysitting. Peyton and Ethan are adorable and I love them both. They have their moments when I want to kill them but . . . that always happens sometimes. I feel really bad for them right now. Their mom moved out a week or two ago and it's definitely throwing them off. They are sad and it's making me sad. For some reason it's been really triggering (I like how I use my namaqua terminology outside of work as well) to me. I think it's just the similarity with the mom moving and the dad being real sad and wanting her to come back. I can't handle talking with him. He always makes me want to cry. I hope whether they divorce or stay together that things get better for them.
I'm currently trying not to care about work. Whitey put in her two week notice on Tuesday. Melissa put in her two week notice on Friday. Koki will be putting his in probably in the next week or two. He's waiting to hear about his internship. You know who that leaves for summer? Me. And only me. Well I guess and Tad but he only does 9-2:30 and we'd fire him if we didn't need the employees because he's the biggest slacker ever and doesn't do shit for us. So I will be breaking in a whole new team. Which is bad in itself but wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to do the teaching too. So people like Paula and Kelly keep thinking that I'm gonna be really upset about people putting their two weeks in, but I'm turning sadness into anger and going with the I don't care attitude. Namaqua's different like that. In most places you are sad if people quit but it doesn't really matter. At Namaqua though you spend your 40 hours with the same 3 people and you rely on them to keep you safe when kids are being violent and you're protecting them so you have a weird closeness.
Our 5 year old is moving on Monday and I'm sad. He's adorable and I am going to miss him in my class. He's really gotten screwed over a lot in life so I hope this new placement works out.
I was spending a lot of time talking to Lauren. Her grandpa died which was really sad. The lawnmower flipped over on him. Of course her parents were on their way to an Alaskan cruise and they had to call them to come back home. I sent a card but I wish I could have done more for their family. I'm sure it was really rough on her dad.
I'm currently looking for a place in Loveland to rent and worrying about everything that goes along with that. Finding a place. Packing everything. Borrowing or renting a truck to move stuff. Stopping all our services here and getting everything hooked up there. Seems like a pain. I hope I love the place.
Bill, Micah and I went to a Rockies game on Friday. It was just what I needed. Getting drunk, two laid back boys, and the Rockies killing Tampa Bay.
On a bright note, Dan is supposed to get the info and get us signed up for soccer tonight. So soon I should be playing every Thursday night which I am PUMPED about.
Tonight is more babysitting and tomorrow starts another long work week (I'm actually approved for like 7 hours of OT a week now because they're making me do all kinds of extra crap) so I better actually get some stuff at the house done and stop playing on the computer.
Less than two months till I see you all but it still seems like forever. I miss you guys.

Quote of the Entry:
"I'm not right
And I'm not fine
I wanna be rain that tastes like wine
I wanna be good
I wanna be great
I wanna be everything except for your mistake"
-"Your Mistake" - Sister Hazel

I had a fantastic day

Here's the recap.
12-3 Taste of Fort Collins with Bill. Had some excellent barbecue. Listened to some live music (the Fort Collins Symphony, which was fine, and then a Denver band called The Trampolines. They were awesome I thought. I even bought their CD)
3-5 Barbecue at Dave and Heather's (Bill's friends) for their birthday.
5-8:30 Back to Taste of Fort Collins. A delicious Frozen lemonade/Bacardi Limon drink, a bag of kettle corn, and SISTER HAZEL in concert. They were awesome. They definitely rank as one of my top bands so I was pumped to hear that they were coming to Fort Collins. They put on a great show. I knew about 3/4 of their songs. They played a lot of songs from their new CD that was just released 4 days ago so I didn't know those ones unfortunately.
8:30-9:30 Back to the BBQ to see if more people we knew had showed up.
This is when things got interesting. Emily called wanting Bill and I to go to Denver to watch some band play. We kind of felt bad when she showed up at the BBQ begging us so we said yes. They were going to run to Bill's to let Angel out and then come pick me up. However on the way home I completely forgot about telling Tyler and Dan that I would stop by Relay for Life and visit them. So I backed out on the Denver trip.
10:30-1:30 Trip to Relay for Life in Loveland. Walked for about 2 hours with Dan and Tyler.
Finally back home after a long day and decided to update for all of you since I was in a good mood.
It was a pretty good week overall. Work has been a little iffy with all the new people. All the older people have really had to pick up a lot of slack.
Wednesday I went and watched Bill and Micah play softball and then went out to get drinks with their team. It was quite the good time especially since the bar was having karaoke and there are some funny people on their team.
Last night Bill and I BBQ'd. It's nice to have dinner with someone else cause then you don't feel like you're making way too much for one person.
Dan has a friend who needs some more players for summer soccer I guess on Thursday nights so it's looking good that I might be able to join that which I would be super pumped about. That's a really long run on sentence that I just wrote by the way.
Well that's about it I guess. The house is pretty empty now that I have a 3 bedroom house with one person's stuff. I hate looking for someplace to move to.
I'm already really excited for the float trip and alumni. 2 good reasons to come home. And I will more than likely be home for Christmas this year which hasn't happened in a while. Yay for seeing old friends! Now all I have to do is get swimsuit ready. Bring on the running.
I hope that everyone is enjoying that it's summer.

Quote of the Entry:

"Hey hey-
Have you ever danced in the rain
Or thanked the sun
Just for shining- just for shining
Or the sea?
Oh no- take it all in
The world's a show
And yeah, you look much better,
Look much better when you glow

If you've had enough
Of all your tryin'
Just give up
The state of mind you're in…

If you want to be somebody else,
If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself
If you want to be somebody else
Change your mind..."
- "Change Your Mind" - Sister Hazel