Things Change

I realized today on the car ride home from TCI training that today I have been genuinely happy. I honestly don't know if I could tell you the last time that I felt that. I mean I've been surface happy or in the moment happy, but I don't think just genuinely all out happy. I even rolled down the windows and sang along to the blaring radio.
I really enjoyed training again today and I went to eat with two of the other people during lunch and we had a great time. One of the girls wants to go out tonight but I don't know if I'll do that or not. I'm really looking forward to training on Monday and Tuesday.
We learned our first type of restraint today - a 2 person standing restraint. I really hope that I never have to do a restraint though. When I was being the youth to help demonstrate how it works and they were restraining me I just kept thinking about how I would definitely be one of those kids that would get more pissed off by being restrained (it helps some calm down faster). But anyways I'd be kicking and screaming and rather angry - I feel quite certain.
Anyways I don't even really know if I know what it is that made me happy or if it just happened or what, but I'm certainly OK with that. I really hope it just stays with me for a while. I could use some full out happiness.

Quote of the Entry: "The road to happiness lies in two simple principles; find what interests you and that you can do well, and put your whole soul into it - every bit of energy and ambition and natural ability you have."
~John D. Rockefeller